I'm such a whiner...
The weeks and months come and go, and I don't draw. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just tired of it. Part of me wants to just give up. Nothing would change in the sense that I'm not drawing anyway, but at least if I gave up I could stop worrying about it.
Something I was thinking about is the name "EDcomics." Nevermind the fact that nobody seems to be able to read or write it properly. Most important is that I don't really draw comics. I don't know what I draw, but it's not comics. Heck, I never even liked the word "comics" because it makes no sense. Maybe in the Sunday Comics sense, but not for comic books... because they're not all comical or humorous. Funny, in other words.
I don't know. I feel like maybe getting rid of the name EDcomics would take some pressure off of me, because working in comic books is something I wanted to do when I was younger, but I never really succeeded at it. I guess it's something that bothers me... but I honestly don't want to do what it would take to get into that industry at this point.
So... there's EDsketch. I've already used that. I have a sketch account here: edsketch.deviantart.com
. I guess at some point a lot of people had multiple accounts and I followed suit for no particular reason. Still, the name... It's pretty dumb. Some people have cool nicknames, but I guess I've never been that clever... and how much of a person's identity is in their name or nickname? I don't know. It's not like changing my moniker is going to make me a better artist. Only drawing more will do that. Maybe I'll spend more time posting to EDsketch, though. I usually don't feel so much performance anxiety about the stuff I post on there.
.... Why doesn't this make me feel any better? Sigh...